Don't Push It

As a Bird Art Card by Inez Singletary

New Moon | April 27, 2025 | 7 Taurus 47’ 

Don’t push it. Don’t force it. Let it happen naturally. It will surely happen, if it is meant to be.” – Leon Haywood

 With the New Moon in Taurus square Pluto and Mars which oppose one another, the feeling may be more that I have to have it, than I have it. There is a certain urgency to our desires, which makes us feel compelled to push.

I am revisiting old lessons, like don’t ask how. In my experience, when I ask how, I feel that what I want is not really possible. Asking how only frustrates and frightens me. I have learned to just say what it is I want and not worry about how it is going to happen. If how presents itself, I won’t turn it away. I’ll clap my hands and click my heels and carry out my inspiration. I will look at what I want, not what I don’t want. I will see what I want and enjoy what I see. I will dwell on images of the wish fulfilled. I will simply make the best picture of what I want. How will be revealed.

Once I wanted to attend a writing conference, but I just didn’t have the means. I lived on the west coast and the college at which the conference would be held was the on the east coast. I saw myself on a plane headed for the conference. I saw myself comfortable about money. My bills were paid. I saw myself walking about a college campus and sitting in classrooms with other women writers. Within days of my imaging, a friend called to offer me a full scholarship to this week-long conference, which included meals. She paid for my transportation and gave me spending money. It was wonderful!

Another time I was worried about money, I was at a Jill Scott concert at the Greek Theater which my friend Michele treated me to. I confided my worries to her and told her that I felt like I was at the wall. She said to me, “Consider this to be your concert at the wall.” It turned out to be a beautiful evening. The Greek is an amphitheater. The weather was just right. The Sun was setting and from our seats, a flowering tree could be seen in the distance. In fact, I was in a place with no walls!

The next day I went back to worrying. Then I remembered something I read from Women Who Run With the Wolves. She said that we run from the skeleton that represents change because we anticipate our change will be a death, but the bones clatter behind us as we attempt our escape. I got the idea to image myself dancing with the skeleton, rubbing his hard fleshless skull, embraced by his bones. At first it was hard to conjure this imagery, but I felt great comfort in it. I realized that what bothered me was that I felt humiliated at the idea of not being able to take care of myself like a responsible adult. I decided that I was no better or worse than anyone else. Then an idea presented itself to me, an idea that got me over the hump.

Practicum

Focus on what you want. Do not entertain not having what you want. Imagine yourself enjoying what you want. When in doubt, say thank you for the thing you want.