Full Moon | June 17,2019 | 25 Sagittarius 53’
“No matter what happens, I will create no more pain for myself. I will create no more problems.” – Eckhart Tolle
I look into my mental field, knowing that a change with an unknown outcome is in the works. I observe myself wanting to fill the field with anxious thoughts and doubtful speculations. Why does one picture what one does not want when one is free to picture what one wants? In either case, it is just a picture. Why is a picture of potential problems the most compelling? Habit—the province of the Moon which is part of the thinking system. Picturing undesired outcomes is the habit of default thinking. Where there is a blank, a space to be filled in, picture problems—is our automatic thinking/feeling. That is why we talk about the fear of the unknown. The problem is what it is we imagine when we don’t have certainty, don’t yet have the answer, and the conclusion has not been reached. But since we are only speculating and we have a blank slate, why not picture what is pleasant?
When we imagine, we are not looking at flat pictures like those in a book. What we picture in our minds are accompanied by emotions. Therein lies the rub and the key to salvation. Picture what you don’t want and you feel anxiety accompanied by a loss of focus and presence. Perhaps you can’t sleep. Perhaps you just don’t feel good. Perhaps your feet, which carry you, swell up, signifying that you are uncomfortable about moving forward. But the time has not come. The day is not here now. This is all imagination. What if things go wrong? What if what I need does not come?
But what if things go right? What if what I need comes in spades? What if I experience the unfolding of the grand plan in a way that fills me with wide-eyed joyous satisfaction? And why not picture a wonderful outcome? Wouldn’t the accompanying feelings be better? Wouldn’t I smile at the prospects? Wouldn’t I feel at ease, even happy? Or should I be “realistic” and worry and wipe that smile off my face and wear a scowl?
To what end? Why mess up this moment and the next and the day and tomorrow and do this for a few weeks? The purpose of this practice is not just to feel better, but to see that feelings manifest, that staying on the good foot does brings good results.
I just finished the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. I found the whole book in audio on YouTube. I am still studying it, and am in awe and wonder that it came to me with the Sun in Gemini on the day it was square Neptune, opposed Sagittarius and square the Moon in Virgo. This is a grand cross in the mutable, changeable, learning signs. Illumination of the Mind is perfect for the Sun in Gemini. Gemini is ruled by Mercury, which happens to be in Cancer and feeding back to the Moon which is now in optimistic Sagittarius.
The Moon rules habit and it is full this period in Sagittarius, the fiery sign of optimism, where you aim your arrow for the best and the brightest. It is conjunct the planet Jupiter, planet of growth and expansion and both are square Neptune. A square says that if you don’t align the powers deftly, you are bound to get noise and tumult. Sagittarius square Pisces wants to square faith and feeling, mind and emotions. Optimistic words are followed by knowing belief, or your visioning is shaky.
By the time I read the words in the opening quote, I knew that I could really do this. I realized that I can cut out the doubt that splits mind and impedes progress. I knew I could stay on the bright side. Just stay. Don’t mess around. Don’t entertain “what if’s” that are not positive. Do it now, once and forever, and do it five minutes from now should you deviate; and know increasingly that you do not have any obligation to consider any outcome that doesn’t please.
Practicum
Write it down. Pick one something you usually think the worse about and write it down as a good outcome. Keep it simple and as brief as one or two sentences because if you drawl on you might start to doubt. And don’t challenge the vision of a good outcome even if it seems wildly impossible. Read what you have written and smile. Place this sentence someplace where you will come upon it from time to time—in a drawer or on the inside door of a cabinet. Every time you read it, smile. Deciding to smile can provide a positive psychological benefit.