Full Moon | August 30, 2023 | 7 Pisces 26’
“You are too idealistic.” he said.
I brooded over this in a defensive posture for a few days. When I found myself thinking in the iconic words of Sophia in The Color Purple, “All my life I had to fight” I stopped myself. It is not quite true that I had to fight for my truth as an idealist.
Even though I could say that I live in a world where the idealistic and the realistic are often at odds, I have seldom been confronted with this directly. What was really happening is that because my Sun and Mars are in Pisces at birth, and Saturn in the realistic earth sign of Virgo, are in opposition, I notice this conflict in the world, and witnessing it, I felt as if my idealism was under attack. However, I didn’t have to fight. I never have to fight. I just have to decide not to internalize the perception and feel marginalized by it.
It was helpful for me to see how we sometimes think we are under attack because we see our own internal conflict mirrored in the environment. Truth is, I have a serious and pragmatic side, shown by Saturn in Virgo. I can honor that and know in myself that I am not flighty.
With the Moon in Pisces opposite the Sun in Virgo, many of us are experiencing this conflict. Chances are that with Saturn in Pisces, we may notice that the idealistic is dissed. We might also feel victimized and oppressed as minorities or women, and even as children.
One of my favorite quotes is by Langston Hughes. “Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.” What’s wrong with being optimistic? What’s wrong with singing your heart out to release yourself from the cage? What’s wrong with not accepting limitation or fear or defeat?
Virgo is the tone of this full moon chart, which is mostly mutable earth. Under this tone, I am a little more wobbly and “janky,” cranky, and self-critical. I decided that I needed to make myself some medicine to handle this influence. The medicine is to not feel disappointed with myself, leading to finding myself not good enough. The medicine is to direct my feet to the bright side of the street, and to monitor my criticism of others while I am at it. Eckhart Tolle advises that we forgive people their unconsciousness and not be reactive. The advice to not take a thing personally is good advice. You don’t have to wear any false label put upon you, and you don’t have to fight or be upset if someone else does.
Also under Saturn conjunct Moon, don’t let yourself get too tired. Don’t take discouragement to heart. As the coach Vince Lombardi has said, “Fatigue makes cowards of us all.” Following this advice, I try not to decide while tired. If I’m tired, I’m more likely to say no or think I can’t.
“If all men count with you, but none too much.” – Rudyard Kipling
When I walked by my artwork propped up on my kitchen counter it “sparked joy.” Then I shared it and found myself wondering if others liked it. I felt less good about it in this light. Then I reminded myself that I liked it and their opinion mattered less than my own. Practice knowing that what you think is important. A habit of pleasing others is unhealthy and futile.