Full Moon | November 12, 2019 | 19 Taurus 52’
“You are in pain,” my guide said, “because you have received but not utilized what you asked for. This is the origin of all pain, not expanding into and living from your best self.
Where? Where had I dropped the ball? The answer came easily when I asked the question. I had not made sure that my speech around current politics reflected my belief. I allowed careless thoughts and words to come out of my mouth. I yielded to the temptation to put “him” and “them” down. I gave in to angry Mars and, sometimes feeling discouraged, I scorned and disparaged them.
That’s how I came to have the murderous images I wrote about at the New Moon in Scorpio. Provoked by what I saw as anarchy, I felt like being an anarchist. I was allowing myself to split. But you can’t really get away with being split. To split is to ignore “I am.” How can do that and prevail? How can you do that and prevail?
My pain was my gums inflamed. Louise Hay, author of Heal Your Body, defined gum issues as “wishy-washy about life and unable to back up decisions.”
I consider it my sovereign duty at this Full Moon in Taurus which mirrors the Sun in Scorpio to declare, stand in and stand for the truth that no matter the appearances to the contrary, there is no “other,” no enemy, no devil to overcome. The Lord my God is one. The world of strife and conflict is a false world.
"This false world simply is not, nor has it ever been. It has no real existence. It is as fabulous as those regions peopled with strange monsters, to be seen on old maps. It is a lying image held in the race consciousness. What we are to renounce is this lie, so that the image of truth may take its place. The real world is a thing of joy, a dance of life. It is a world in which no one finds it difficult to be a means of bringing happiness to others. It is a world of abundance, health, and prosperity; and one of the means to knowing it is to awaken in ourselves full functioning of the Intelligence of Desirous Quest." — Paul Foster Case. The True and Invisible Rosicrucian Order
I saw this false world clearly as I sampled the speeches of the “Presidential Forum on Environmental Justice,” sponsored by Democracy Now on 11/8/2019. I listened to the candidates attack the nation’s problems, with blame and insidious and odoriferous language. Even Marianne Williamson, who Is supposed to be carrying the spiritual banner, used language like, “dirty underbelly of American society” caused by a “deeper virulent strain of capitalism.”
While there is no denying of the facts or truth of the problems enumerated in this forum, I could see that for the most part, the glum portrayal was sticky, heavy and onerous, too grim a picture to engage with, let alone fight.
I saw a puffing up, decoration, elaboration and near celebration of the imagined malefic. I could see the phantasmagoria these descriptions were emanating from and creating. I could see it as “fabulous as those regions peopled with strange monsters, to be seen on old maps. It is a lying image held in the race consciousness.” True, yes. But only half true, not the whole story, and not the story I want to participate in the telling of.
Having to start somewhere, I will start with affirming that “the real world is a thing of joy, a dance of life.”
Practicum
Toni Morrison said, “We die. That may be the meaning of life. But we do language, that may be the measure of our lives.” Empowered lives required empowering language to drive it and make its measure. What empowering thoughts might you have? Make a list of your own or someone else’s empowering thoughts.
One of my favorites comes to mind, “Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly.” – Langston Hughes. Another favorite, “We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.” – Albert Einstein