Full Moon
December 23, 2007
1 Cancer 50’

I am going through something that involves my dwelling place. Home and family are ruled by the sign cancer, which the moon is in for our full moon. I believe that if I told you the story, you would side with me.

However, when I sat down one recent morning for my regular meditative practice of journal writing, my eye fell on the soft snowy scene of the Christmas card that Jill sent me, that said, “Peace on Earth,” I wrote, in my journal, “I want to stand my ground, and prevail. At the same time, I wouldn’t mind creating a little peace on earth both for E., and myself.” “Let me hear the message Thou hast prepared for me this day.”

I immediately heard and wrote an interpretation of several actions on my part over the last several months that set me up for this precarious situation.

And then I heard, “Turning the other cheek is not about them. It is about you.”
The other cheek is like the story of the man who wore a hat that was one color on one side and another color on the other side and he walked up and down a river that divided the vantage point of the people on either side of the river. When he turned around out of their sight he was careful to turn his hat also so that both sides were convinced they had the proper color of the hat. They argued fiercely about the correct color and thought the people on the other side were crazy and unreasonable.

“Turning the other cheek means looking at the side of yourself that you cannot see or are not looking at. You present the other cheek to yourself. The opponent is the dark, opaque or obscure side of yourself.”

The Moon is in Cancer and will conjunct a retrograde Mars in Cancer at the full moon. The Moon suggests that we might be on automatic. Our buttons might be pushed.

I have been obsessing about my own situation, stuck in the groove of injustice, despite what I know about my part. This is probably because as of this writing we are still building toward the high emotion of the full moon. There is a certain comfort in replaying my righteous speech, going over and over in my head the part where she is wrong. However, this is not serving me.

How do I know? Let me be a little indelicate in the interest of truthful illustration—Two days of constipation. This morning I looked this condition up in Louise Hay’s book, Heal Your Body. Hay says constipation is, “Refusing to release old ideas. Stuck in the past.”
A statement from “The Pattern on the Trestle Board” found in The Tarot: A Key to the Wisdom of the Ages by Paul Foster Case reads, “In thought, and word, and deed, I rest my life from day to day upon the sure foundation of eternal being.”

“In thought,” I repeat to myself. I haven’t been resting, I’ve been obsessing, and that’s a poor use of thought power. So now I am self-admonished to find a way to rest my thought. I’m going to go dig out my Christmas CDs and get ready for the holidays. Peace on earth, good will to the person who is getting on my nerves, and good will to myself. I shall remember the One and accentuate the positive. If you are engaged in a struggle, I hope this is meaningful to you.