Full Moon
July 25, 2010
3 Aquarius 0
“Pilot of the airwaves, here is my request. You don’t have to play it, but I hope you’ll do your best. I been listening to your show on the radio and you seem like a friend to me.” – Charlie Dore
I would like to be me, accepted for my individuality. I would like someone to look at me in my differentness and my quirkiness and find it acceptable, endearing, beautiful, and charming. I would like to go for my dream, thank you, and have you cheer me on in it and celebrate my success before you even see it manifest. I would like you to champion me while I am on the path, and whisper booster words to me and give me water when I’m thirsty and dry.
I want to run my own race and score my own victory and see reflected in your face a glimmer of pride and admiration. But I struggle with my own imperfection. I would like you to be there for me to let me be tall in myself. In return, I will play my best for you, to see the light in your eyes.In other words, me and you baby, side by side laughing in the purple rain. Because even though I gotta do it alone, it’s no fun unless I bring it home. My day has got to be our day. (First Quadrant/Third Quadrant emphasis)
The Sun is in Leo. Our backs quiver with the force of what we would like to be, see, do and have. But what’s it all about Alfie, unless it can be shared? Anyway, Alfie. That’s my dilemma, my paradox. To light my own fire and carry my own flame, to be my blazing best and anticipate acceptance for it. But deep inside, I fear jealous rejection. My light, my will, my daring and focus brings up my own darkness. (Scorpio on Leo’s 4th) Yay, though I walk in the path of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. I will not fear the names that the members of my own household may have for me. I am not talking about the people that I live with, though they may seem to reject me or withhold from me, making me feel crushed. I am talking about my own tally sheet, my own list of faults and secret sins, all the reasons why I might want it but not feel deserving.
Does this sound like your inner dialogue? Now is the time to deal with our talents, or supposed lack of them. What’s a talent? Is it an inner ability that comes unbidden, a gift? Is it our offering, no matter how seemingly humble? Our Leo part flexes stupendous. Dazzle them with brilliance. But it is important for our stupendous-maker self to recognize that our work for that moment of magic transcendence happens in the quiet and alone hours when nobody is looking. It comes in the attention to detail, refining and refinishing. It comes at the workbench, hammering and shaping (Virgo) with the love of the vision in our mind, (Libra). Everything I (Leo) do (Virgo) I do for you (Libra). You, the picture of happiness that I have in my mind. Peace, be still.
Focus on what you want. Look at the goal, the finished product, then get to work. Get on up. You are going through. You are going to overcome. You are going to survive and thrive. You may be at the border where it is so important that you keep going. It is tougher at the border. You have already been traveling for a while and now you may be feeling a little tired, a little worn out, and discouraged. It’s tougher at the border. It’s where you meet your own perceived limits. The border is the testing ground. How bad do you want it? Do you want it bad enough to face your own doubts and fears?
Prepare for success even though you may be visited by ghosts of failures past. This is Mars conjunct Saturn. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen. Prepare and rehearse as if you expect the best. Work on your weaknesses. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Success comes from repeating the steps one right after the other. Success comes from stringing your efforts together.
I was getting ready for a presentation a few months ago and I wasn’t feeling good about it. I was feeling like there would be nobody there, and so I was procrastinating when I should have been preparing. Thank God I heard a voice say, “Prepare for success.” And that is what I did. What if I, expecting that there would be no one to receive me, neglected to organize and prepare, but the people came? Then I would have fulfilled my trodden philosophy with people watching! It is better to be prepared to be brilliant and not have an opportunity to perform, than to fail to prepare, and be unable to perform at the opportunity.
I prepared to the point that a few people complimented me on my organization, and to this day, I am reaping benefits and growth from the success of that presentation.
Here’s the deal. One day you experience the success you were afraid you wouldn’t have and you say to yourself, I did it!
And the voice asks, “What did you do?” You say, “I let it. I didn’t block it. I received it. I let myself be the vessel for good work by paying attention and doing whatever was at my hand.”
Inez, You always hit the mark….. You say just what I needed to hear…. Thank you… Have a wonder filled day…. You are the BEST…. Love, light and a hug, Noreen
Thank you Noreen. I feel so blessed to be appreciated in this way. I receive your love, light, and most especially your hug.
I am new to Vision Carriers, thank you for this. I just started two new jobs and this is exactly where I am today. Thank you for reminding me to prepare to be excellent.
Dearest Inez, thank you this is so powerful this is everything I think about…GOD BLESS YOU, after reading this its my confirmation CHANGE is in the air this is my opportunity. I will be contacting you. Love and blessings, Judy
Inez your words, “You may be at the border where it is so important that you keep going. It is tougher at the border,” spoke instantly to my higher self. I’ve been at the border of completing a very important documentary for years and delays seem to be everywhere. Thanks for your insight. I will get across the border very soon.