Archived Lunations:
Realize that You Can Change
New Moon
July 14, 2007
21 Cancer 41′
We must live our lives congruent with our consciousness, a condition of utmost simplicity, costing not less than everything.–T. S. Elliot
We must live what we know. We must put our muscles where our mouth is. It is a simple matter. Everything must go into it. Nothing can be held back.
When we live consistently with what we know in this manner, we close the gap between concept and practice, between idea and reality, between what we say and what we do, what we profess and what we actualize.
When we consistently live what we know, we do not need to know as a separate thing because our head is not separate from our body. We do not need to explain ourselves to ourselves or others. As above, so below.
When we consistently live our truth, we are our authentic selves. Authenticity comes under domain of the sign Cancer because Cancer’s keywords are, “I feel.” Your feelings are your Geiger counter, your touchstone, your radar, your divining rod. You know when you are pretending to feel something that you do not feel. You know when you are pretending to be something that you are not.
No matter what sign you are, you have Cancer somewhere in your makeup and if you are separated from your true knowledge of yourself, you know it. Cancer knows. Feelings know. Even if you deny them, they know. How else are you going to perceive truth if not in your very own system, if not internally?
If something rises in your mind and you deny it, that’s it. If you say, “Not that. That’s it.”
You wouldn’t push it away if you didn’t fear it. But what do you fear? Do you fear the truth? Do you expect your life to work under these circumstances? Do you think it is better to maintain the marginal and not reach your deep veins? Do you think you can eat fake fruit?
This is all about you. Relationships are your review. You perform. You live and move and have your being in this world and you get a response or reaction. If you do not like the response, try to resist demanding or insisting that the respondent change. For a different result, change yourself.
This is about what you are bestowing from your feelings (Cancer), from your heart (Leo) and from your work or service (Virgo). You may say, my heart and my substance are not valued, and it is a hard saying. You may say, I am not giving of my heart and my substance, and that, too, is a hard saying. But this leaden heaviness has but one purpose: to be turned into gold. Do not allow your heart to harden. Do not allow your light to dim. Persist. Say to the light within “You will out.” You will shine forth. You are big and you are bold. You are beautiful and you are worthy.
Your need to feel optimistic about your work and your health and your ability to go places and see things. You have to feel that you can expand, that you can do better than what you have (or don’t have) now. You need to keep an open mind in order to continually adjust your subjective view that might not be taking in the pertinent aspects of the map or the picture. Allow yourself to realize that you can change and you can do it by letting go and letting God.