The Wound We Do Not Let Heal

April 26th, 2017

changing placesNew Moon
April 26, 2017
6 Taurus 27’

I have a permanent and infallible interior connection. When I have it as my cornerstone, I cannot be shaken or separated from the good which is mine. This good is represented by Venus, ruler of Taurus. At this New Moon, Venus is at 29 Pisces conjunct Chiron at 27 Pisces.

Love and The Wounded Healer. Chiron is said to be about the wound that does not heal, but I think we can say it is the wound we do not let heal. Chiron heals when we heal. And Chiron heals others by example rather than by the laying on of hands and such.

Venus and Chiron in this chart are about healing emotional blindness that has become repeated (Moon) to your detriment. Beliefs are thoughts that you keep thinking and at the level of Pisces they can be reactive and delusional. It can represent the errors that we make together, perhaps over generations. Venus conjunct Chiron must reconcile with Saturn in Sagittarius. Sagittarius is the law and the rules moralized and sermonized with conviction Saturn structures and institutionalizes them. Belief is more persuaded than dictated. Sagittarius square Pisces can point to lack of resonance with that which is being decreed.

I have uncovered a dissonance within me that can be related to this Venus-Chiron square Saturn in Sagittarius in the 8th house of joint resources, debt and taxes. This dissonance was so prevalent that I was like a fish in water, yet not noticing the water surrounding me. My dissonance was that I live in a financially predatory world that is always seeking to exploit and wrest from me the little that I have. I started to really notice this when I started to have more. I was afraid that I would not keep it, that I would blow it.  When I went for an oil change on my car and the man said, you need this and that too, I did not have the excuse of “I don’t have it” to make my decision. I had to decide if I would “believe” the proprietor and part, perhaps foolishly, with my money.

I realize that living in a financially unfriendly universe is an unhealthy story to swim in. To heal, I choose to be more conscious of the fact that the universe is friendly and supportive of my needs, goals, dreams and plans. When I become aware of myself thinking suspiciously, I get myself back into the stream that says things are for me, not against me. I must live this truth, breathe it, think it and accept it into my blood and cells to benefit from it.

To fear being cheated is to live anxiously because I am disconnected from my inner guidance, attracting (Venus) the very thing I do not want.

PRACTICUM

Affirm in thought and word and deed that you live in a friendly universe. Cement this belief by asking for help with your everyday challenges like doing your job or getting one. Pause when you feel stuck. Listen for the pulse of guidance and synchronize with the beat of it.

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